Love

Lately I’ve been asking God a lot of questions, mainly about what he wants for my life. I’m one of those people who wants to know what’s going on, when its going on and how it is going to be done. I don’t like not knowing. Especially when it comes to my future. I remember when I was a kid I had my whole future planned out. Where I was going to college what job I was going to have and where I was going to live. Since then those young dreams have changed and now they are starting to become a different kind of reality. I question God. Where do you want me to go to college? What do you want me to major in? Do you want me to go to seminary? Are you really calling me into the ministry? Do you want me to do something else? And then I ask questions to myself. Do I want to go to a big college or a small college? Is this really what I want to do? Do I want to make a lot of money first and then think about seminary? I want to know all the answers and I want to know them pretty soon because by listening to guidance counselors, parents, and teachers I don’t have that much time left. It seems like a lot of what is on my mind is what I’m supposed to do as far as my education goes. I don’t think I’m the only one that’s worrying about this either. But the biggest question that I ask God more than any other is “God what do you want from me, I know you have a plan but what do you want me to do right now?”In Matthew 22:35 Jesus is being tested. A religious leader is trying to get him to say something that isn’t right. The religious leader asks Jesus “Teacher, What is the greatest commandment in the Law?” Jesus answers “Love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your mind. This is the first and greatest commandment.”This is a verse that I’m sure everybody who has been in church has heard. Love the lord with all you heart, soul and mind. That’s so simple but yet SO significant. After thinking I realized that this is what Jesus wants me to do. This is the one and only thing that Jesus wants from me right now. He wants me to love him. He wants ALL of me to love him. He wants my heart, my soul, my mind and he wants all of it. That is so easy to say but it is so hard to live up to. Jesus made it simple and however what he made simple is so hard to do. He wants us to love him. That’s all. All he wants is some love. As I read this I realized that all God wants from me right now is for me to love him with my whole being. It’s that simple. I also realized that he will then take care of everything else when I first love him. He will take care of my future, my dreams, my goals. Some of you might know that I have felt that God has called me into the ministry. At times I feel that this is really what God is calling me to do and at other times I feel that this might not be what I want to do. But after reading this I know for sure what God wants me to do and that is to love him. Maybe he wants me in some type of ministerial position, maybe he wants me to be an engineer, or maybe he wants me to be a banker. I don’t fully know right now. But I do know that when I love him and put him first he will show me exactly what he wants me to do. In the world we live in today people are telling us that we can make money doing this or that. They tell us we should do something that we enjoy doing as a career. All these are good suggestions, but I want to do what God wants me to do and not some teacher, career planner or anything else. I guess what I’m trying to say through all this is that no matter what the world says for us to do we should always remember the one thing that matters and that is God and God’s plan for our lives. And that when we love him and make him the number one priority in our lives he will show us how he wants to use us to advance his kingdom.